This morning I was still at unease with Declan. After what that Stacey Dillion did to him and me!!! And what she just said about him and he has picked her over the young girl that he was going with before he went into prison. She seemed really nice and she did a lot for Declan. Now he has just dump the lassie and she was in bits. She was texting me and telling me what Stacey was saying and also Declan. Declan said some nasty things about me. So I am really in a dilemma 🙃
Then today's word in my Bible is about the power of our words....I'm worrying about what I might say and worried incase I hurt people but what about me. Do I let them trash me and not stand up for myself. Or is it me that is being nasty 🤔 then I read This in today's plan
So if you feel embattled, scared about what the day might bring, or want to run from the conflict rather than towards it, be strong and courageous. God is with you. He comes not as a military power, but as a person who bravely battled the grave and won (1 Corinthians 15:24-26). He has even placed his death-defying Spirit inside you. God is with you more intimately than he ever was with Joshua. Jesus says his Spirit in us is better than standing right beside us (John 16:7).
So let's see what comes up before tomorrow visit. Because I am not sure if I want to go or not. And really have to think about Declan and the way he treats me. Do I really need him in my life?????
Stoic Meditation...February 7th
FEAR IS A SELF-FULFILLING PROPHECY
“Many are harmed by fear itself, and many may have come to their fate while dreading fate.” —SENECA, OEDIPUS, 992
“Only the paranoid survive,” Andy Grove, a former CEO of Intel, famously said. It might be true. But we also know that the paranoid often destroy themselves quicker and more spectacularly than any enemy. Seneca, with his access and insight into the most powerful elite in Rome, would have seen this dynamic play out quite vividly. Nero, the student whose excesses Seneca tried to curb, killed not only his own mother and wife but eventually turned on Seneca, his mentor, too. The combination of power, fear, and mania can be deadly. The leader, convinced that he might be betrayed, acts first and betrays others first. Afraid that he’s not well liked, he works so hard to get others to like him that it has the opposite effect. Convinced of mismanagement, he micromanages and becomes the source of the mismanagement. And on and on—the things we fear or dread, we blindly inflict on ourselves. The next time you are afraid of some supposedly disastrous outcome, remember that if you don’t control your impulses, if you lose your self-control, you may be the very source of the disaster you so fear. It has happened to smarter and more powerful and more successful people. It can happen to us too.
FEBRUARY 7 THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH
The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights. —HABAKKUK 3:19
Deer have the ability to bound over rocky, rugged mountain terrain as though it is flat pastureland. Because of this ability that God has placed in them, they can easily maneuver through what looks to be very dangerous territory. The prophet Habakkuk said that he had that same ability, and so do we. The example of the deer bounding over dangerous heights is intended to help us understand that in Christ, we too can easily navigate places that would seem insurmountable and dangerous. With God’s help, we can handle difficult situations while remaining peaceful. I encourage you not to fear new experiences or situations that look difficult. Ask for and receive by faith God’s strength, believing that you too have the spiritual feet of a deer and can leap over difficult terrain in the circumstances of your life. “Father, I love You, and I resist fear in Your name. Because of Your Word, I believe I can do difficult things with ease. I ask for Your help, and I rely on You at all times. Thank You. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
February 7
There are, it may be, so many kinds of voices in the world, and none of them is without significance. The Bible: I Corinthians
A man who is maintaining a large weight loss and is abstinent and sober in both OA and AA tells how he came to accept the gift of abstinence. Finding his way to OA after he became sober in AA, he was dismayed at being the only man in a roomful of women. “I didn’t hear what they were saying,” he admits. “I secretly ridiculed them for not understanding what the program is about. “One day, one of the women I was especially critical of got up and shared about the need to detach herself from one of her children, who had a drug problem. That was exactly the situation my wife and I were facing. What that woman said showed me I hadn’t been working my AA program half as well as she’d been working hers. I made my amends to the whole group, took a sponsor and became abstinent.” For today: I listen to all who speak at meetings because I can never know in advance when someone will say just what I need to hear.