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Page 10...Todays verse is Exodus 14:14

I like the NLT version "The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.

This is my problem, when anything happens to me, I react with anger.

when I was listening to today meditation for Exodus 14:14 this stood out. The time on the video 9:53

"Oh my dear friends in the faith. I know all too well how tempting otis to take matters onto your own hands. It didnt work out well for me and it wont work for you. So remember the Lord will fight for you, you need only be still.

Then a picture popped up on my phone from a couple of years back. It was a picture of a video study by Andy Stanley 

And on the pictures were 4 discussion points--

1. Describe your relationship with anger?

3. Do you shout out or shat up

3. what / who are your triggers? }

4. Are you ready to acknowledge the part of the problemm, is youre not getting what you want-I think I need to watch this study again

Also when I was looking on google I found this site

https://whahyoumakechblag.com/ so-buble-verses for-

when youre- overthinking 

The writer of the blog is called Jen and she was writting about overthinking and I can relate so much to this-This is my biggest problem, as the girl says on the blog  "My mind does a funny thing when it freaks out. It decides to take a perfectly normal situation, and comes up with about seven different things that could go wrong out of it.

The title of the Blog is  "What you Make of it" Discover your incredible worth in knowing he designed you to be who you more ....Love it!!!

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Page 8... More from the video I watched' Filter your feelings by Joyce Meyer. I started to write about it on page 5..

"you say well he got a lot of problems well you know what most people do these days. And the more you think about them the bigger they seem. Whatever you focus

aon becomes the lwargerst thing in your life, so the best

thing to do is just get up out of your sad chair where

your feeling sorry for yourself and having your pity

party and just go do something take a walk and thank

God for Nature. Take a walk round a nursing home and

thank God that youre not in that condition some of those

poor people are- Amen.

GET YOUR MIND OFF YOURSELF AND DO SOMETHING ELSE.

A few quotes and comments on discipline. lack of discipline

leads to frustration and self-loathing.

You feel good about yourself when you discipline yourself. You know as well as I do if you start out your day and

know you've got a plan and know what you should be doing that day, your going to get your house cleaned. And if you do them youre going to be able to sit down and relax and enjoy yourself and you'll just feel good

But isnt it frustrating when you go through a whole day and you know you were super busy all day long and for the life of you at the end of the day you cannot figure out one thing that you did.

I mean that is the most frustrating thing and you know what causes a lot of that, letting other people control what we do. We have a plan and we let somebody else derail us.

Dont think for one minute that the devil wont use anybody he can use to get you off of your goals to frustrate you, and keep you from being the person God wants you to be.

How many can study the Bible without getting interrupted

Todays Bible Study

Recovery Principle Devotional: Self-Perception.

Read (Romans 12:1-2).

How many time have we wished that we could be someone else? Perhaps one reason we act out our addiction /compulsive personality. If we dont like

who we are and feel helpless to change, we can be reassured in knowing that God has the power to change as dramatically.

The apostle Paul wrote : " I plead with you, to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice-the kind he

will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him. Dont copy the behaviors and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you

will learn to know God's will for you, which  is good and pleasing and perfect"  (Romans 1231-2).

Paul tells us to avoid being like the world around us. If we copy the behavior and customs of this world we will head straight towards- selfish ways and destructive dependencies. Our work involves turning our lives over to

the care of God, As we trust and obey him, he will work the changes in us and make us new people. God wants to change us from the inside out. As we are changed on the inside, we will begin to demonstrate those changes in our

externalattitudes and actions.

we all have great potential for change, but we cannot do it under our own power, As we yield our lives and wills to God, we can depend on Him to renew our minds

and hearts. He will help us overcome our defects of character, transforming us from the inside out.

* I found this by chance today- The worship song that was played at the beginning  of the Bible Study was by Hillsong "I Surrender" and the scripture Romans 12:1-2 was in the lyrics.

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Page 6- Tuesday 22 June 2020

Satan is the master of illusion. -Bible Study. "The Armor of God"

What came to mind is the symbol I have for Vincent. It's the Dragonfly and the Scripture for it is Psalm 23:2-3 "He leads me beside quite waters, he refreshes

My soul.

Love it I found this on World birds.org/ dragonfly-symbolism

A dragonfly symbol represents change and transformation. It is a reminder for you to shed more light and joy in

your life. It tells you not to remain in the dark or the shadows

A dragon encourages you to dive into your emotions and ask your spirt to soar with your true colours.

what do dragonflies mean? A dragonfly ask us to break free from our illusions. As it reflects light, it asks us to reflect our inner light (THE HOLY SPIRIT)

It encourages us to be adaptable, creative, and inspired even if it means changing the way we act or think so we

can achieve our full potential.

So what do dragonflies symbolize? A dragonfly asks you to express your true feeling as you stand in your authentic

self and speak your truth in grace and lone. So a dragonfly meaning can be summarized as "transformation

to become who we really are.

We generally see dragonflies near water bodies. And water represents emotions and the unconscious part of the soul.

Therefore, seeing dragonflies could mean that we should explore our feelings, emotions and the inner self, although in a joyful and light manner,

Film "Lucy Shimmers and the prince of peace"Song From The Film called " A PARENTS LULLABY"

Oh the tears are rolling down my face 😥😥

Song From The Film called " A PARENTS LULLABY"

Film "Truth"

20th June 2021.......
Was watching a film there on prime called "Trust" ...inspired by the book of Job, Trust tells the story of Daniel Rainwaters, an everyday guy whose life is fallen apart. As his marriage to Sarah begins to crumble when he loses his job and thinks that life couldnt get any worse, it does. Bitter towards God and going nowhere fast, Daniel must learn to trust God again before he loses it all for good.

What stood out from the film for me was...The story Daniel friend told. It was about how jesus had to go through suffering also. He had to drink from the cup these were his words .“Father, if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” Luke 22:42

So Daniel got the point his friend was making and he started to drink from the cup and his life started to change. He was doing Gods will not his own.

It's funny I've sent for a necklace from Amazon and on it it says "THY WILL BE DONE" The exact words Jesus said in the garden of gethsemane.

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June I9th 2021... This morning I have read this

twice "Blessed us with every spiritual blessings in the heavenly realm because we are united with Christ!

first I read it in my Priscilla shiner Bible study Im doing called "The armor of God" and then second:Ephesians 1:3.

This is great news of the gospel. That Jesus died for us and has left his spirit for His chosen ones!

Thats why I want to do this Bible study... I can see how

Satan has blocked my mind to this. As I said early on in 

page One. We were held back by our mind because satan was attacking us.

Priscilla had written on day one of the Bible study-

Be confident and victorious, you've got to be able to "see" it.

I Could not see what the devil was doing. I was blinded!! but the Lord has opened my eyes so I can see what the enemy

is doing in my life now. I can also see what God has given me to disarm and defeat him.

He has given me His Armor

• The Belt of Truth on Ephesians 6:14,

• The Breastplate of Righteousness--Ephesians 6:14

• Feet prepared with the Gospel of Peace. Ephesians 6:15

•The shield of Faith... Ephesians 6:16

•The Helmet of salvation- Ephesians 6:17

•The Sword of the spirit., Ephesians 6:17

Satan made me think that I was not good enough to be an example

for others. 

But God had a plan for my life and now its time

to take back the strongholds Satan had over me. And with God's Armor I am ready to fight this battle in my mind that

says I'm useless

it will be God that will be doing the fighting with satan but as his servant I will be doing what I am guided to do by God- not Satan.

So here is to the next 6 weeks of this Bible study. Im really looking Forward to it...

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I Love this picture for this Journal. When I look back over my life. I can see that the biggest lessons I have learned is through the hard times. I use to curse

them but now I just ask "whats the lesson in it for me

when I stayed up in Motherwell I had a vision board and the title was "Cultivating A New life? It was the beginning of my New life in Christ.And the theme was gardening Just like this photo. 

We need to get to the root of the stuff we want to remove from our lives.We also have to feed and take care of the things we want to stay in our lives.

In 2010 I went to the Alcoholics Anonomous. My drinking was getting out of hand. it was taking over my life.

My brother John had hanged himself in 1999. And I just could not cope with the grief. So Alcohol was my escape. Also in 2000 I found out that Vincent was a heroine addict. So that was another excuse for my drinking, I was so selfish, I was just thinking about myself and I wasnt there to support my family I can see that now, I couldnt back then.

This is why guilt is eating me up right now.I wanted so much to go back to recovery groups but because of the pandemic all the Recovery meetings where closed. A friend from church gave me a link for some Christian Recovery Groups and I loved them. 

On one of the meetings one night a guy called Matthew who guided the meetings mentioned The Life Recovery Bible. So I bought it and I just love it.

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Step 1 : We admitted that we were powerless over our problems-that our lives had become unmanageable.

This was me back in 2000. My life was on a downwards spiral and

I was out of control.

The scripture for step 1 is Romans 7:18 "I know that nothing good lives in me... I want to do what is right but I can't.

Oh this is so me! Going through the programme back In 2010 I wanted so much to do what was right but I just couldnt. It took me a year going to A.A meetings and doing what I was told to eventually stop drinking for good. My AA Birthday is December 31 December 2011.

My two boys were addicts too, but they were the same, they wanted so much to do the right thing but they couldn't.

They died of their addictions. Vincent died in October 2014 and Thomas

November 2016. So as I said at the beginning my hardest lessons

were through the hard times. And these were my biggest lessons ever.

What I'm finding out now, it was our minds that were under attack. It was our thought that held us back. I use to wonder why I was spared and the boys werent. But I think it was because I brought God back into my life. And He

gave me the Holy spirit to guide me.

Just now I'm being guided by the Holy Spirit and he is showing me my character defects I need to change.

In the A.A. Step 2 says "We came to believe that a power greater than

ourselves could restore us to sanity."

And this I do believe, just wished the boys did too. But that was their journey and this is mine. And I can only tell you what I have experienced.

I love the scripture for this step : Philippians 1:6-8

"God is working in you giving you the desires and the power to do what pleases Him."

So I hope I can do my Heavenly Father proud,

Armour Of God

Prisila Prisler

Devotional Reading...No-Win Situation.

The 12-step devotional reading plan begins here :

 "No Win Situation" 

Sometimes we are powerless because of our stations in life. We may be in a situation where other people have power over us. We may feel that we are trapped by the demands of others and that there's no way to please them all. It's a double bind : To please one is to disappoint another. Sometimes when we feel stuck and frustrated with our relationships, we look for a measure of control by escaping through our addictive behaviours.

 Hagar is a picture of powerlessness. She has no rights. As a girl, she was a servant to Sarai and Abram. When they were upset because Sarai could not bear children, Hagar was given to Abram as a surrogate. When she did become pregnant, as they had wanted,  Saria was so jealous that she beat Hager, and Hagar run away. All alone out in the wilderness, she was met by an angel who gave her an amazing message: "return to your mistress, and submit to her authority.' Then he added, 'I will give you more descendants than you can count.' And the Angel also said, ' You are now pregnant and will give birth to a son. You are to name him is Ishmeal  (which means "God hears"), for the Lord has heard your cry of distress" (Genesis 16:9-11)

Bible Reading : Genesis 16:1-15.

Now Sarai, Abram’s wife, had not been able to bear children for him. But she had an Egyptian servant named Hagar. So Sarai said to Abram, “The Lord has prevented me from having children. Go and sleep with my servant. Perhaps I can have children through her.” And Abram agreed with Sarai’s proposal. So Sarai, Abram’s wife, took Hagar the Egyptian servant and gave her to Abram as a wife. (This happened ten years after Abram had settled in the land of Canaan.) So Abram had sexual relations with Hagar, and she became pregnant. But when Hagar knew she was pregnant, she began to treat her mistress, Sarai, with contempt. Then Sarai said to Abram, “This is all your fault! I put my servant into your arms, but now that she’s pregnant she treats me with contempt. The Lord will show who’s wrong—you or me!” Abram replied, “Look, she is your servant, so deal with her as you see fit.” Then Sarai treated Hagar so harshly that she finally ran away. The angel of the Lord found Hagar beside a spring of water in the wilderness, along the road to Shur. The angel said to her, “Hagar, Sarai’s servant, where have you come from, and where are you going?” “I’m running away from my mistress, Sarai,” she replied. The angel of the Lord said to her, “Return to your mistress, and submit to her authority.” Then he added, “I will give you more descendants than you can count.” And the angel also said, “You are now pregnant and will give birth to a son. You are to name him Ishmael (which means ‘God hears’), for the Lord has heard your cry of distress. This son of yours will be a wild man, as untamed as a wild donkey! He will raise his fist against everyone, and everyone will be against him. Yes, he will live in open hostility against all his relatives.” Thereafter, Hagar used another name to refer to the Lord, who had spoken to her. She said, “You are the God who sees me.” She also said, “Have I truly seen the One who sees me?” So that well was named Beer-lahai-roi (which means “well of the Living One who sees me”). It can still be found between Kadesh and Bered. So Hagar gave Abram a son, and Abram named him Ishmael.

Step 1