Page Two Of My RoWrite Journal

Step 1 : We admitted that we were powerless over our problems-that our lives had become unmanageable.

This was me back in 2000. My life was on a downwards spiral and

I was out of control.

The scripture for step 1 is Romans 7:18 "I know that nothing good lives in me... I want to do what is right but I can't.

Oh this is so me! Going through the programme back In 2010 I wanted so much to do what was right but I just couldnt. It took me a year going to A.A meetings and doing what I was told to eventually stop drinking for good. My AA Birthday is December 31 December 2011.

My two boys were addicts too, but they were the same, they wanted so much to do the right thing but they couldn't.

They died of their addictions. Vincent died in October 2014 and Thomas

November 2016. So as I said at the beginning my hardest lessons

were through the hard times. And these were my biggest lessons ever.

What I'm finding out now, it was our minds that were under attack. It was our thought that held us back. I use to wonder why I was spared and the boys werent. But I think it was because I brought God back into my life. And He

gave me the Holy spirit to guide me.

Just now I'm being guided by the Holy Spirit and he is showing me my character defects I need to change.

In the A.A. Step 2 says "We came to believe that a power greater than

ourselves could restore us to sanity."

And this I do believe, just wished the boys did too. But that was their journey and this is mine. And I can only tell you what I have experienced.

I love the scripture for this step : Philippians 1:6-8

"God is working in you giving you the desires and the power to do what pleases Him."

So I hope I can do my Heavenly Father proud,